I’m not a prophet, but every now and then I have a prescient, a message that weighs heavy on my heart.
But first I have a confession.
I grew up in a christian household. My father being a minister meant for us church once or more times in a week. This was fine at first, I enjoyed being in the children’s choir, but with time I grew less infatuated with the routine.
I hated not having the choice of going. To worsen things, I was involuntarily a part of the Youth’s fellowship, Hence, I started to rebel .
One day in high school while our economics teacher was singing a tune, I hummed along, completely unaware. It was a song from a popular christian group. By the time I realised how inappropriate I was acting, he was already searing through his thick rims at me. I apologised, wondering how mad he must be. Instead, His grim face brightened up and he says, ” One day you’ll be able to sing out loud and not feel ashamed,”.
During my last year of High school, a preacher was praying for the graduating students. He later calls me aside and says; “promise me that you will not forget God in the future,”. I had no idea what he was talking about as I made no plans to leave the tropical shores of my country at the time.
Leaving Nigeria was an exciting period for me. On one hand, I’d never been so far from home. Secondly, it meant freedom, not just from my parents but ultimately from God. I tried to maintain church going for about four months, then I folded up my Bible and forgot about that life. I was 16 at the time.
It was fun not living under any rule of conduct, but eventually loneliness surrounded me.
Med school was more bloodcurdling than I anticipated. As a result, I spent 2 extra years, which I never publicly complained about, considering the number of students that drop out each year. Because of this, I always prayed during the exams period.
In 2017, I reconnected with an old high school friend. We reminisced on old times, on when we’d present the news every Friday. We also got paired up a few times for Bible hour, I’d say the prayers, and he’d preach.
I told him, I don’t do that anymore, and he seemed genuinely sad to hear it. That Christmas he sent me an ebook titled, “the prayerful woman”. I was swamped with final exams and thesis work, but I made out time to read the book, and it made me reflect on my life choices.
2018. I rededicated my life to Christ, and relinquished the control I thought I had. I’m akin to a new born in the kingdom. Now I learn everything again. I would say that first, there was, and still is, a purge of Pride, selfishness and jealousy. I’ve also been getting lessons on God’s love and wisdom.
But today, I have something different in my heart, and it says;
“I will turn your weakness into strength, I will turn your enemies into allies”.
I’m sharing this Good news because of the slight chance that you, or even a nation (Nigeria’s election, America’s midterm is coming up) may need it too.
I’d also recommend you read Psalm 139, if your heart leads you to.
So there it is people. I am not a preacher, neither do I want to be! I am but a new born in a 24 year old woman’s costume searching for a her purpose through Jesus christ.
Happy Halloween. God bless you!
but sometimes I have prophetic dreams